Why?

[Illinoisblue]

suicide by cop?

And make some other person's life - the cop who shoots you - potentially as miserable as yours? That's not very fair.

You can't be that scared of living; you've set up your own business - not many people can claim to have done that.

[R18 DVD Shop]

YOUR life may be great but that doesnt automatically translate to everyone elses lives

I wouldnt see the mess left behind by the bullet so why should I care? There is no clean and easy AND effective way of killing yourself - all the best ways are messy but the only people who will have to see it are those who are paid to do such things so that doesnt bother me in the slightest.

[R18 DVD Shop]

I have thought of that but, at the same time, when he/she lifts a gun they know they may have to use it and if the thought of killing someone were to cause them that much trauma then they shouldnt lift the gun in the first place. As for setting up a business, that was fun for a few months while it actually involved brain power but now it just becomes part of the daily monotony of existing - yeah its doing great (much better than I ever thought it would) but I didnt need the money before I started it and dont need it now, its just a "hobby" more than anything else and it took no guts or anything like that to open it.

My issues are not in my professional life either as a purveyor of porn or as a technology consultant - in that life I have oodles of confidence, self esteem and the respect of peers, bosses and customers.

My issues are in my personal life, my issues are with the me which no one else sees - everyone sees the outward confident chirpy Jay who can talk customers into just about anything and talk for hours on end and make people sit in awe and think how great he is but no one sees the real me that has been eaten away to nothing. Maybe thats a reflection on society cos no one has actually bothered to look but that could just be me getting even deeper than usual.

[davey]

are you thinking of blasting off into space?

[RetroDon]

I've lived the last 2 years of my life, and especially the last 12 months, on hold. This is due to nannying legislation, solely down to crap like the patrioit act (and I aren't even American or have even been to the US!), and all the bullshit "anti-terrorism" laws implemented since the yanks arranged to have some islamic pricks kill a few people.
Nothing I am involved in is illegal, far from it, yet the additional legislation has kept me from what it is mine. I am rich, yet at the minute I am broke (almost bankrupt) - a situation that is as infuriationg as it is morally wrong. So, society has effectively taken a lot away from me, and there is nothing I can do about other than wait. All basically because previous generations, and present generations in we are honest, have allowed the "state" to erode basic rights from us, and still continue to do willingly. So, whilst making money I can't get I'm having to dodge bailiffs and creditors, left right & centre.
I won't go into any more detail cos it is my business and no-one elses, but despite being fairly depressed, if I hadn't taken notice of stuff such as Tony Robbins and taken a look at myself and what I'm about a) I would have gone stir crazy and either killed myself or someone else, & b) I wouldn't have made the cash in the first place, and would probably be extremely depressed indeed, with not much light at the end of the tunnel.

Your blessed with an ability to see things a lot of people can't/won't, so use this insight and it will come good. Dwelling on the shit society we live in will only make YOU and YOURS feel worse.... And keep on avoiding the news media and religion.

[R18 DVD Shop]

I used to think that money was the way to happiness and that money solved everything but it doesnt - the problem with money is it can get u all the material things u could ever want but it doesnt get u the really important things, the things that money just cant buy. I would MUCH rather be penniless and happy than be like I am now with money in the bank

[R18 DVD Shop]

nope Im thinking of going the other way - to the land of worm food

[Lizard]

I didn,t say my life was great, I said LIFE IS GREAT, everybody has shit times, even me!!, but you need to focus on the good things, they are there...

[fevrd]

Can you send me your stock before you do it?

[R18 DVD Shop]

sorry but someone has already got their name on them as well as my computer, TV, fridge, car, flat panel - the list goes on..........